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Softly wings are flowing
Breezes through the air
Light of heaven shining
God's masterpiece to share
Gates of heaven open
With streams of light that show
Magnificence is captured here
Through portals love will flow
See the clouds are forming now
They gather like soft wings
As gently angels carry love
With every hymn we sing
Peaceful echoes sounding
With love that always chimes
Captured by the elegance
Of angels so divine
Hearts of love so cherished
Enter now with grace
Carried on the wings of peace
With smile that we embrace
Handed to our Father
With tender loving care
Brought to Him with tenderness
His Arms forever there.
~
 Francine
Pucillo
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©used with permission
Poetry~Emotion
February 17th, 1975 ~ December 27th, 1994
My Son, My Angel
Jason Nathaniel
Jason was born on a brisk February morning in 1975. I had anticipated this
birth to be relatively easy, after all he was the eighth child born to me. So when the doctors started to act a bit concerned it worried me somewhat. The problem was that my son was coming feet first, or as it's called in medical terms "Breach Birth". Jason was pushed back and turned around and I had to wait for him to begin again with the birth process....pain and all.
Finally my son was here, all 7lbs 6ounces.
Jason seemed to cry all the time once we were home. He had a good appetite but whenever he wasn't eating he cried and cried. This was not typical of my babies and worried me. His pediatrician told me not to worry that he would out grow it. After 6 months he did seem to get better and was pure pleasure to his parents and his siblings.
Jason, grew up well liked by his peers and the girls thought him oh soooo fine (and he was). He was an accomplished dancer, which was a natural for someone coming from such a family as ours. We love music...all kinds. Most of us have the God given talent of singing or dance...and some of us have both.
Besides growing into a fine young man Jason also had a sense of humor and I don't believe anyone got as much joy from his jokes as he
did....and thats exactly what would make us laugh....he really thought HE was funny.
Jason met a young man one day when he was 18 years old. The guy was 26 or so. This guy liked my son at first and Jason took to him as a friend. However he grew jealous of Jason and one day decided to enlist the aid of three other men who knew nothing of my son. Had never even met him. These people will never know what they missed. They got high and decided at a christmas party for teens to kill my son. They got him in their company and stabbed him repeatedly, and when he would not die from the stab wounds they inflicted all over his body they then put his body in the river...just pushing his body in close enough to the bank so that only his feet would still be visible.
When I made reference of him being born Breech....I believe he was intended to come feet first and ironically when he died he went out of this world with his feet in the air as even the newspaper displayed a picture of his death, this is the way they immersed him in the river. This is the same river (The Hudson River)which I lived near and it even happens to be 2 blocks away from where I spent all of my childhood years growing up; and I was always for some reason afraid of the that River. I would never learn to swim even though I loved the beach.
As I stated earlier, Jason was an accomplished dancer. He was also an aspiring Artist. This was documented in the newspapers as well. The young people from Jersey City just loved him and they talked of his artistic talents often. He started dancing at a very young age in clubs in NYC. I'm talking the big ones where stars frequented. He also performed in Atlantic City.
Oh could he dance! He went to quite a few High School Proms with different girlfriends, at various times. Perhaps it was all in Gods plans that he enjoyed his life so fast. This world owed him nothing. So when I say this other person was jealous of him....the above mentioned were some of the reasons Why.
My Jason didn't get high like a lot of young guys....He was high on Life.
Jason's Memorial Site is now somewhere I now have for me to go and reflect! I hope too, that Jason's Story will reach others, touch their hearts, as he did so many while he was here on this Earth. It also, helps me to remember the good things when Im here as well as the bad that happened to my baby. In other words I can smile, laugh....and I now can give myself permission to cry!
Yet, I know that this horrific ordeal is something that I must deal with and sometmes I do well and other times I just break down mostly because I am having to be strong for my other Children (As I recall, when we went into the church to have service that day for Jason I turned and faced my other remaining Children and told them "We are All Jason has and WE can do this!) All the time I did not feel those words. I died that day. I died and im still dying.
What I'm trying to say I guess is that I never had my day. I had to stay strong for my other remaining Children and so there was no one for me to go to and just cry. As i am doing now as I write this!
My Jason loved pleasing mummy as he called me, even till the end....his last words to me was on the phone and he said "I luv you mummy!"
May God have mercy on them and the feelings that run through my very soul as I write this. They succeeded in taking my child from me in body. But they can NOT remove his spirit....I see him....I feel him and I know his spirit is here within my heart. No one can take that away....I will never forget you My Baby, My Son.
To My Dearest Family
Some things I’d like to say...
But first of all to let you know that
I arrived okay...
I’m writing this from Heaven where
I dwell with God above...
Where there’s no more tears or sadness
There is just eternal love...
Please do not be unhappy just because
I’m out of sight...
Remember that I’m with you every
Morning, noon and night...
That day I had to leave you when
My life on Earth was through...
God picked me up and hugged me and
He said "I welcome you...
It’s good to have you back again
You were missed while you were gone...
As for your dearest family
They’ll be here later on...
I need you here so badly as
Part of My big plan...
There’s so much that we have to do
To help our mortal man"...
Then God gave me a list of things
He wished for me to do...
And foremost on that list of mine
Is to watch and care for you...
And I will be beside you
Every day and week and year...
And when you’re sad
I’m standing there to wipe away the tear...
And when you lie in bed at night
The days chores put to flight...
God and I are closest to you
In the middle of the night...
When you think of my life on Earth
And all those loving years...
Because you’re only human
They are bound to bring you tears...
But do not be afraid to cry
It does relieve the pain...
Remember there would be no flowers
Unless there was some rain...
I wish that I could tell you
Of all that God has planned...
But if I were to tell you
You wouldn’t understand...
But one thing is for certain
Though my life on Earth is o’re...
I am closer to you now
Than I ever was before...
And to my very many friends
Trust God knows what is best...
I’m still not far away from you
I’m just beyond the crest...
There are rocky roads ahead of you
And many hills to climb...
But together we can do it
Taking one day at a time...
It was always my philosophy
And I’d like it for you too...
That as you give unto the World
So the World will give to you...
If you can help somebody
Who is in sorrow or in pain...
Then you can say to God
At night my day was not in vain...
And now I am contented
That my life it was worthwhile...
Knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile...
So if you meet somebody
Who is down and feeling low...
just lend a hand to pick him up
As on your way you go...
When you are walking down the street
And you’ve got me on your mind...
I’m walking in your footsteps
Only half a step behind...
And when you feel the gentle breeze
Or the wind upon your face...
That’s me giving you a great big hug
Or just a soft embrace...
And when it’s time for you to go
From that body to be free...
Remember you’re not going
You are coming here to me...<
And I will always love you
From that land way up above...
We'll be in touch again soon
P.S. God sends His Love...
Author Unknown
~When Tomorrow Starts Without Me~
And I'm not there to see
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say
I know how much you love me
As much as I love you
And each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand
She said my place was ready
In heaven far above
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love
But when I walked through heaven's gates
I felt so much at home
When God looked down and smiled at me
From His great golden throne
He said "This is eternity
And all I've promised you"
Today for life on earth is past
But here it starts anew
I promise no tomorrow
For today will always last
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past
So when tomorrow starts without me
Don't think we're far apart
For every time you think of me
I'm right here in your heart
~Aurthor Unknown~
Love........
is a bond of hearts that parting cannot sever.
In spirit and in memory, Love endures forever.
I have held many things in my hands,
and I have lost them all;
but whatever
I have placed in God's hands, that I still possess.
Martin Luther
Amazing Grace
Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.
Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me,
His Word my hope secures;
He will my Shield and Portion be,
As long as life endures.
Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, Who called me here below,
Shall be forever mine.
When we’ve been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we’d first begun.
A Mother's Love
My Love from beginning to end
Does not cease to exist if I cannot hold
Forever that which is dear to me.....
For what God gave me was a Gift
In this Child of Mine and for Nineteen Years
I held him in my arms.....
And though My Son was taken from Me
So Abrubt So Violently.....
I know He will be there
Waiting on the Other Side.....
What treasures I hold deep inside of Me
Of all our times spent together....
Will have to console till Our Meeting in Heaven
When the Lord will call me Home.....
My Dearest Jason, I do hold you close in memory
Even though we are apart....
Your spirit will live on, here within my heart...
My Dear Son, you are with me always.
Love Mummy
This poem was written in My Honor & Jason's
By Lynn Emerson-Rook
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